When the stars go blue

These days i feel so.. alone? I don't know la. Alot of things have happened over this one year, and it just seems to be getting so much worst. sometimes i feel like just dying so that everything will be over, yes suicidal i guess? ahas. but dont worry, ive never tried it. i dont know who to talk to about this, honestly, i feel like its no one.

School is becoming more stressful, i feel like dropping one a level subject so that i can better concentrate, but its like, i dont know what to drop. i know the best choice would be econs, but i like that subject more than physics, dont know la, its complicated. and my mum gave me the atm card last sat and now i spent like 200 bucks already? all in one week, and not even on clothes. trying to get together the things for ww, just hope that nothing gets screwed up.

Jc life is horrid in the sense that i never seem to be able to be free to catch up with old friends. and when i feel like it, it just feels like they are so far away. oh wells. goodbye.