Before he cheats

man, yet another entry dedicated to him.

okay, so i really had mixed up feelings when i chanced across his friendster. maybe not chanced but whats the point. well, things are putting themselves into the place, (my command of english is horrible), and im starting to understand some things even better. so i think i've a someone grasp of the girl that he's interested in. and its annoying because its just one day ago that he came to wish me happy cny. i dont know why but all these little details i always think its something major. maybe its because we had a history, that it makes everything else a tad too sensitive. man, sometimes i really think he's taking advantage of the fact that i have a major soft spot for him, that no matter what happens, i will really be there for him. man, and it sucks because i dont want to be that person that you fall back on when you need me, or when you can't get anyone else. right now, it really feels that way. sometimes i think i should seriously just cut you out of my life. but i don't even have the strength to do that. greater irony? you were the one that chose to leave me, correction, you dumped me. man i am so peeved la seriously like when i always think about it. WHY DO I FUCKING HAVE TO HAVE THIS STUPID SOFT SPOT FOR YOU?

relatives at my house. cny sucks. seriously i dont really like cny at all.